Looking into the mirror
Every time I look into the mirror I dislike what I see a little more each time. I only have one mirror in my house and it’s in the bathroom. I don’t look in it very often and I honest wish I could cover it forever. When I’m at the Y I choose the treadmill that isn’t in front of the mirrors and if it’s occupied I do my best not to look.
I’m not really sure when I started hating mirrors but I’ve never been very confident in myself. I don’t feel beautiful or sexy. I can’t seem to figure it all out. When I do look into a mirror I want to look away. Where is my neck? Why do I have hair on my face? Why does my smile always look fake?
Rachel said,
March 3, 2009 at 8:11 pm
Part of loving yourself and getting healthy is seeing yourself for who you are. I remember being shocked when I saw a picture of myself. That can’t be me, I scoffed. But it was. And it was an impetus to change and become who I felt I was inside. (((HUGS))) You won’t gain anything by turning away or pretending that your reflection doesn’t exist. Face it, and go from there.